The Return - or how I became a pilgrim
~300 km and eleven days later I arrived in Lausanne.
I started in Wetzikon where I lived for the time being. The universe made sure I stop there for a moment. I was already all part of the way, inevitable, it made me meet the right persons at the right time needed. It made me more sensible to listen and see for what my ears and eyes where closed for years. When I met my wife 12 years ago I had a strong believe in the universal soul. Paulo Coelho described it in his second book after he took the way to Santiago, the Alchimist. The soul that keeps everything in balance, that makes sure dark is there that light can exists, that chaos is there to allow for order, that we are strong to allow us to be weak, that soul, that power that balances the universe.
We are always everything, always both. We can't be active without being tired. We can't die without being born. All in balance.
I lost it years ago. The balance and worse, the believe in it.
So the balance, or call it god (while I prefer "him" or the universal soul) sent me some strong signs, or maybe I did just oversee them the time before, or maybe it was the inevitable way that I even can understand. I don't know.
One afternoon I listened to Robert Betz audio book "Ueberleben in schwierigen Zeiten". As I was at work I chose a not as deep audio book as his other ones - well, at least I thought it won't be that deep.
At some point, I was already alone at the office and listening about an hour to him, he said: "Now take two sheets, DO NOT THINK extensively about it and just write down all your fears!"
Easy task I thought to myself, the five ones I get quickly on a paper.
3 sheets later fully covered with fears, even recursive ones, so talking about the fear of a fear I was astonished about what's under the hood. What I did either depress or I was convinced it would never really tangle me. It tangles.
I moved on through my playlists on my phone to find something to listen to, not to continue thinking about my live and the current situation. I scrolled and scrolled through gigabytes of playlists just to stop at "I am off then".
Circumstances arose and roundabout an hour later I found myself in front of the train stations' church, advertising the availablity of the pilgrim pass. And obviously I had not much more than the the fee in cash in my pocket. Tuesday afternoon.
Wednesday morning I left for a business trip till Friday afternoon. Friday afternoon I packed my stuff and programmed one of my server to send a message daily at 0800 to my daughters. Each day a dedicated and personalized one that they know I think about them, because on Saturday morning I left without any technical devices and started my journey in Wetzikon to Rapperswil and Einsiedeln.
I started in Wetzikon where I lived for the time being. The universe made sure I stop there for a moment. I was already all part of the way, inevitable, it made me meet the right persons at the right time needed. It made me more sensible to listen and see for what my ears and eyes where closed for years. When I met my wife 12 years ago I had a strong believe in the universal soul. Paulo Coelho described it in his second book after he took the way to Santiago, the Alchimist. The soul that keeps everything in balance, that makes sure dark is there that light can exists, that chaos is there to allow for order, that we are strong to allow us to be weak, that soul, that power that balances the universe.
We are always everything, always both. We can't be active without being tired. We can't die without being born. All in balance.
I lost it years ago. The balance and worse, the believe in it.
So the balance, or call it god (while I prefer "him" or the universal soul) sent me some strong signs, or maybe I did just oversee them the time before, or maybe it was the inevitable way that I even can understand. I don't know.
How I started LISTENING to Robert Betz (german, and highly recommended)
In short: circumstances. Several situations happened where Robert repeated exactly, word by word, what someone else told me recently. Situations where you look behind yourself to confirm he is not watching you.One afternoon I listened to Robert Betz audio book "Ueberleben in schwierigen Zeiten". As I was at work I chose a not as deep audio book as his other ones - well, at least I thought it won't be that deep.
At some point, I was already alone at the office and listening about an hour to him, he said: "Now take two sheets, DO NOT THINK extensively about it and just write down all your fears!"
Easy task I thought to myself, the five ones I get quickly on a paper.
3 sheets later fully covered with fears, even recursive ones, so talking about the fear of a fear I was astonished about what's under the hood. What I did either depress or I was convinced it would never really tangle me. It tangles.
I moved on through my playlists on my phone to find something to listen to, not to continue thinking about my live and the current situation. I scrolled and scrolled through gigabytes of playlists just to stop at "I am off then".
Circumstances arose and roundabout an hour later I found myself in front of the train stations' church, advertising the availablity of the pilgrim pass. And obviously I had not much more than the the fee in cash in my pocket. Tuesday afternoon.
Wednesday morning I left for a business trip till Friday afternoon. Friday afternoon I packed my stuff and programmed one of my server to send a message daily at 0800 to my daughters. Each day a dedicated and personalized one that they know I think about them, because on Saturday morning I left without any technical devices and started my journey in Wetzikon to Rapperswil and Einsiedeln.
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